Do you suffer from the need to be perfect like I did? I can feel your pain. Is there something inside of you that just wants to “let it all go” and be free. I just recently realized how I created patterns of perfectionism. My previous job required me to check plans to send to clients where they were going to be used to drill well sites and construct pipelines in the oil and gas industry. I would always be in resistance to receiving feedback because it was usually very negative. I always felt that no matter what I did it was never good enough. I could literally be 98% accurate and I would only hear about the 2% I screwed up on. I ended up leaving that job feeling very dissatisfied. I continued my search outside of myself for the recognition that I felt I deserved but I couldn’t find it anywhere I looked because my belief of “not good enough” didn’t change.
It wasn’t until I realized that the recognition that I wanted was inside of me all of the time. I shifted from thinking and feeling “not good enough” to “being in service”. I found that I used to be attached to the outcome. I wanted to fix people not realizing that they didn’t need to be fixed. I had huge expectations of others and myself. Recognizing that this wasn’t working for me I choose to let go of the outcome, allowed myself to just be and trust that I could provide what others needed in the exact moment they needed it.
What I found was that the outcome looked different than I could of pictured it but it was exactly what I needed at the time. I realized in that moment that we’re all divinely guided and protected including myself. I started to trust my intuition in the present moment and allowed myself to “let go” of the need to control life. I started to allow life to unfold the way that it is supposed to and I now choose to learn the lessons that are in front of me.
So, why would “being in service” make all the difference? It’s really about recognizing who you are and using your unique strengths and abilities to help others. I now know that I am better able to receive what it is that I need by first giving whatever it is that I can give in the present moment. The recognition that I was seeking all along came in the form of a new love of myself. By letting go of the attachment to outcomes and my unrealistic expectations, I now choose to enjoy the present moment and allow for feedback. I feel more clear and grounded, I don’t judge myself as much and I allow others to see who I really am. This is true power because now I feel that I can be in even greater service to others. Loving yourself first will give you the power you need to let go and trust in the universe.
Robert Gregoire
Director
Gurutropolis
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